Hello everybody,

I haven't been updating since a lot has been going on lately. I am going to be made redundant at work. I will still work until the end of september, but as soon as I find something else I can leave the company without a notice period. After all this hard work I received the sack... Well, that's life isn't it?

Luckily I have holidays this week and next week, which means that I have a lot of job interviews planned already. I hope to find something new soon.

With all the commotion I took up smoking again. It is unbelievable how a cigarette can kill you stress for 10 minutes. I haven't really been counting calls, but on the whole I am not doing bad at all.

Bye guys!

Hello,

It's been a couple of days since my last update. I have been very busy. I also ate a little bit more than I hope, but I guess I did pretty okay today as you can see below. However, even though I have my period right now, it seems like my stomach has been as flat as a couple of months ago. I'm kind of bugged I felt rather big at my wedding day, but well, life goes on.

INTAKE

Breakfast
140

Snack
50

Lunch
360

Snack
130

Dinner
500

Desert
300

Total
1480 cals

It is 4.20 am now (saturday 6th juni in my time and space). After sports and dinner I fell asleep in the lap of my husband on the couch during some stupid-ass movie. I woke up in bed half an hour ago.

Firstly I must say that it is sometimes hard to realise that I live with someone who unconditionally loves me, despite my depressions and complexions. I must be a very nice and sweet-hearted person sometimes, or so they keep telling me.

Let's start with yesterday's damage, here's why I am so proud:

Breakfast + Snack
2 wasa crackers 60
1 serving of diet salami 40
1 very small serving of cream cheese 20
1 bag of provita thingys 99
Total: 219 cals

Lunch + Snack
2 wasa crackers 60
1 serving of diet salami 40
1 very small serving of cream cheese 20
1 bag of provita thingys 99
Total: 219 cals

Dinner + Desert
100 grams of boiled pasta 125
45 grams of low-fat ham 48
255 grams of tomatoes/union/cucumber/olives 50
125 grams of raw cauliflower 25
20 grams of light grated cheese 60
150 grams of yoghurt 75
1/2 apple 35
1/2 nectarine 25
10 grams of dried raisins 30
40 grams of muesli 144
Total: 617 cals

Grand total of the day: 1055 cals

I stayed below my minimum intake of 1200 cals a day! Isn't this great!?

Exercise: 30+ min with EA Active, burned 126 cals

Now, for a whole other matter. I am depressed. In my current job stress levels are upping with a speed I cannot follow anymore. I do not like my job anymore, no, it's even worse than that, I am starting to hate my job and it is depressing me. My boss knows this. She came up to me today so that we could have a progress meeting, she sees that 'the light has gone out' and that I cannot do it for much longer. I reckon I will be fired soon, but at the moment, it doesn't really bother me anymore. When they fire me, I get a couple of months pay and then I will be able to look for another job.

I am looking at the moment, but the crisis is visible everywhere. It is harder than before. Luckily, my husband works full time as well, so even though we wouldn't be exactly comfortable with one salary, it will certainly be manageable.

Anyways, will surf around now for a bit more. I hope that I'll be able to sleep some more after this.